Saturday, December 18, 2010

" Let go & let God" ...

                   Today at work I almost hit my breaking point. At some point you honestly get tired of "how you could do things" or being questioned on why? I do things the way I choose because it's how I choose to, no questions. I rarely get so upset that I leave my job but today I was done. I decided to leave because I can't stand when people see me cry, esp. strangers and they were all around. After I got to Wal-mart to pick up my new awesome coleslaw recipe fixings, I calmed down. I'm just tired of being made feel as if I am not good enough for the job I am busting my ass for. Ahh!!! On a brighter note.....

               Recently I had the pleasure of reconnecting with two great friends of mine, Amanda and Mariah. I am so thankful that I was lucky enough to have friends that would allow the past to be put behind us because they both bring so much joy into myself and for that I am THANKFUL!

                       As many of you may know, I am starting to struggle with my weight and how I feel about myself. I have started to get really upset when it comes to looking at the number that pops up on the scales. I know everyone tells me that it's only a number and that I look fine but I do not FEEL fine anymore, I feel uncomfortable. I feel fat. I feel ugly... and I feel like I'm ready to change this. New Years is coming up and I know everyone always says " THIS IS THE YEAR I'LL SHED THE POUNDS!!" .... well this year... this year is my year.... my year to make it happen and make a change in my life.... a change I am ready to see.

                  As many of you know, Paul and I recently decided to get a puppy. I always knew that getting a puppy is a bit of a stretch but this little guy has wore me out but I must say ... he is worth it. Diesel is a "Bug" ... a Boston terrier and pug mix. Simply ADORABLE. :) He wanted to leave a few pictures of himself to share because he got a new snazzy collar today :). God Bless everyone!!

for now, I am done. I have lots of laundry and housework calling my name.....


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